Am I Pretty Yet?

Many thanks to Clara, who in all her computer-saavy wisdom, told me how to fix my blog so it looks normal on PCs. So now, somebody with a PC, please tell me if it looks right!

Wish Me Luck

Well, some things are looking up. I have 2 job interviews (both for part-time administrative assistant jobs in Sacto) coming up soon. So we'll see how those go.

Also, I'm excited because a friend of the family, Valerie, is going to give me her old bike on Monday. She's just getting the lights fixed and repairing or replacing one of the wheels. So it's a decent bike in pretty good condition--just used enough to hopefully keep it from getting stolen.

Meanwhile, I've started thinking and planning again for law school applications. I even have some tentative long-term career ideas. And I'm looking into some community college courses this fall. I might take Design and/or an HTML/Web Design course. The html course could be useful cuz it covers cascading style sheets (CSS), which is what this blog template is in. If I knew CSS, maybe I could make this template work!

It's still a little hard getting into the rhythm of things here, but I'm sure I'll eventually adjust to life back in Davis.

Back in the Valley, Again

Well, I got successfully moved. I even managed to get my bed to Davis (hurray for George!). So now I'm settling back in. When I moved my stuff (last week) it was around 100 degrees here. Great timing, as usual.

What now? Get organized, pay overdue bills, do laundry, search for jobs. I really don't know what to do with myself. Right now, I'm just taking it one day at a time. I figure existential angst can wait til I've finished my long list of errands.

Many thanks to all the supportive souls out there who listened to my complaints, fears, (a few) sobs, and offered me lots of encouragement. I feel like the hardest part is over (knock on wood)....

Oh, and sorry about the funky formatting on this site. It only comes out funny on PCs; it looks totally normal on Macs. So either everyone should go buy a Mac (my preference) or I guess I need to dump this template. One or the other.

Augh!

This has absolutely been the most stressful week of my life. I am the sort of person who always allows extra time to do things because I can't stand hurrying.

But I've had no choice. I had to hurry to search for apartments. Hurry to sell off all my stuff. Hurry to pack. Hurry to plan a move to Davis this weekend.

I still don't know what's expected of me for the rest of this month at work. I still have to figure out whether to switch orthodontists. Forward my mail. End my phone service. Finish selling my belongings. But worst of all, I still don't know how I'm getting my things to Davis. The problem is that I haven't been able to sell my bed. I love my bed, and I'd bring it with me if I could. I'd find room for it there. It would be just one thing I'd have left from the life I'm leaving behind. But I have no way to move it.

I feel so helpless. Useless. I just wish I could drive. Something so basic. Actually, I have no real desire to be able to drive. I just hate having to rely on others to do things I should be able to do myself.

More Than a Bit Stressed

Well, I think I can pretty much say without exageration that my life has turned upside down. Actually, it feels more like it's crumbling beneath me.

I've figured out that minus a job (or really any idea of what I'm gonna do), I can't afford my current apartment. Since the lease is up June 15th, that means I have to move before then. That's 9 days and counting to: find a place, secure a lease, get packed, find someone who can drive to help me move, get rid of excess stuff, and get moved in.

I'm trying to find a place in the East Bay at a really cheap price. If I can't, I'm gonna get rid of all my furniture, and run back to Davis.

So far, I've applied for one place and contacted people about two others (haven't heard back yet). I'm not feeling too optimistic about the first place cuz they sound like they want a co-signer, and I think we remember what happened the last time I needed one of those.

I want to feel independent and able to take care of myself. I don't want to have to rely on my mom to provide for me. At the same time, I wish I had more friends here in SF. I feel so totally overwhelmed and incapable of handling everything. If you're looking for me, I'll be hiding under my covers.

Good News, Bad News

The good news is that I can finally pursue my dream of running off and joining the circus.

The bad news is that I lost my job.

The good news is I didn't like it that well anyways.

The bad news is that I have lots of bills to pay.

The good news is that the decision to lay me off was purely financial, so I can get references.

Y'all get the picture.

Anyone have a yacht?

Work is totally dragging me down right now. First of all, the Exec. Director is totally breathing down my neck about a project. He thinks he's being helpful, but he's so not.

Then there's the computer disaster of 2004. My computer is,like, fatally infected with spyware. And my boss is asking me, "What sort of sites are you visiting because they must be sketchy?" Great, so now he thinks I'm some kind of porn hound. The truth is that I do Google searches on everything, and you don't always know whose site you're visiting.

Anyhow, the computer situation is literally so bad that it looks like I'm going to have to stop using the computer entirely. I can't even just delete everything on the hard drive--it isn't working.

Meanwhile, it's not like I was enjoying work before this crap started. I've been considering other career paths generally anyhow. According to my astrology book (hey, I don't have the answers; maybe the stars do), Pisces (that's me!) are supposed to do best in jobs like acting, art gallery work, writing, and (I'm not making this up) lounging on yachts. I want that job! So if anyone has a yacht they'd like to lend out...